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|Monday, July 28th, 2003|
Wow, its sure been a while since I've posted here... I'm sorry that I kept my *cough* adoring fans awaiting for so long... but many things have happened. I understand that most of the people in my life had a journal here and that many of you followed their lives through it like a soap opera. Just so that you don't think that we all up and died (even though some of them I wouldn't mind...>.> ) here is an update:
Well, Ryuichi and Tatsuha fled the country and are now living in Switzerland with their three adopted puppies and an empty soda can. Kumagorou got tired of being second to Ryuichi and moved to the states, changing his name (for security reasons) to Heywood Jablowme. Yuki and Shuichi lived a happy married life until Shuichi developed a brain tumor and Yuki refused to leave his side. Three point two seconds after Yuki declared his undying love for Shuichi, the tumor miraculously went into recession and the two are once again, living a happy married life. Sakano still freaks out about EVERYTHING, however, since him and Mistah K have decided that they cannot live without eachother, he seems to have calmed down a bit, startling the weather reporters who had made their living by tracking his human tornado. Tohma still owns everything and everyone, and well, I doubt that'll change anytime soon. Hiro and Fujisaki kun have started their own porno company, where I'm PRETTY sure I saw Noriko on there, ...not that I watch porn or anything. Mika is working on removing that stick from up her ass... however, three painful operations later, they're still battling with it. Ma kun left me for Tachi, saying I was too angsty and cynical but eh, whatever. If he wants to go run off with Camera!fetish boy, whatever floats his boat. My fish died, I'm turning into an alcoholic and my shorts are on inside out. Thank you for your time and for caring. :)
(ooc: Okay, so none of that REALLY happened... but still... >.>; I miss this Rp and uh, don't take this post seriously AT ALL. ^-^; BUT! if no one ever posts here again, please consider this their future... HEY! at least everyone got a happy ending...>.< /ooc) Current Mood: Wise
|Thursday, June 19th, 2003|
|Thursday, May 22nd, 2003|
Haiiii!!! sorry for not writing!! I've just been soooo busy! First off, I've been looking for a new apartment for me and Ma-kun! and Maybe Tachi and his little girl, but we don't know if they're moving in with us yet... small children should not be kept around at night with me and Ma-kun... or during the day... or *cough* well... we won't go into that!
Speaking of Ma-kun!!! We got back together!! This makes me very happy!! We had this really long talk and we decided that things just moved way too fast and that we should try to take things slower. This made me sad, because I am IN LOVE with him (not that he knows) but looking back on some of my earlier entries, I admit that I was getting a bit obessessed... o.o; to the point of stalking. But he did give me this REALLY good candy its all sugary and fruity... though he says that its TOO sugary, I don't think so. I've been eating it a lot lately and he says I'm starting to scare him. Silly boy ^_^_^_^_^
Okay! I gotta go now!! Ma-kun just came by and took my candy !! I gotta go chase him down! and PUNISH him!! ^___^
The infallible, Kenchan! of! ASK! Current Mood: hyper
|Saturday, April 12th, 2003|
...I am such a fool...
I can't believe I had the nerve to say that to him... I didn't mean it... I was just upset because I had wanted to spend the evening with HIM but I forgot that he was hanging out with Yoshiki...
>.< Speaking of her...I finally went to the store, having run out of food a few days ago... and guess who I ended up behind in line? Exactly... >.<
I don't know why...but I just...started talking to her... Oh god, I've been such a fool... a jealous blind fool... >.<
I wish I knew where he is... I miss him...
I ....love him...
|Sunday, March 16th, 2003|
~_~ I don't know what's wrong with me lately... everything has just been going wrong... ;_;. It seems like I can't do anything right... I stopped going to band practices, I avoid Tachi... Even Ma kun seems put off by me. I...
....I think I am falling for him... That scares me so much. I can't love him... I know what happens when you love someone. You love them more than they love you and all you get is heartbreak... Attraction is fine, lust is beautiful... but ... love?
I've been trying to drive him away, but at the same time, I can't stand to be away from him. All I do is get mad at him, and yell at him... even though he doesn't do anything wrong... the slightest word could set me off... I'm so scared of getting hurt...
I've locked myself in my room now.. Ma kun is out on the couch ...or at least I think he is... he might be out with that ...woman... Yoshiki. they spend a lot of time together... I've noticed how comfortable he is around her... Could I be pushing him away too much?
I started writing a new song... I don't know if I'll finish it... I don't feel like doing much of anything...
I thought it'd make it better
I thought I wouldn't cry
But today I discovered
how I'm going to die
I left the friends I knew
and I should have
thought this through
But now I have nothing
and I don't know what I'll do.
I do not know if I should die
or if I should just live this lie
but if I died
would my old friends cry?
would I harm them if I died?
If you said yes,
then it's a lie
cause' no one cares if I die...[ooc:That poem was written by my friend Julie ^^ Love you Julie!] Current Mood: depressed
|Saturday, March 8th, 2003|
I HAET YOU MA-KUN!!!1 HOW COULD YOU BE SUCH A A...GYA!H
I'mm crying so hard I can barellly type tiss... I NEVAR WANT TO SPEAKS TO YOU OOR SEE YOU AGAIN!
|Friday, February 14th, 2003|
Ugh...Valentine's Day... ~_~ I hate this holiday...x.x; Seeing everyone with their lovers, celebrating their love... v.v;
Someone shoot me, all I can think about is where Ma-kun is... he's been gone all day. v.v Current Mood: discontent
|Sunday, February 2nd, 2003|
....~_~ It's just the season for finding things isn't it? Tachi found his little girl, Tohma found his kitten, and I ... I found Mr. Bubbles.
Who is Mr. Bubbles you ask? Well! Mr. Bubbles is my new pet! I found him when I was taking a walk to get away from Ma-kun's incessant asking of whether or not anything was wrong... and I was passing by this alley way when the light glinted off of something. I had time to kill (I wasn't ready to go home yet... Ma-kun was cooking again... *shudder*) So I went to go see what it was ...and I found Mr. Bubbles!!!1 Its very odd...I mean who would leave a fish bowl out in the middle of a dark alley. I wasn't going to keep him, but then he looked at me with those big bulging eyes and I just couldn't leave him. ._. There was a note leaning up against the bowl saying something about how the previous owner wished to never EVER see poor Mr. Bubbbles again and that they hoped some alleyy kittys ate him. Which I dun't think was very nice ofg them by the way. ._. I'm sure Mr. Bubbles' feelnigs are hurt . Meaniesss.
Ma0kun offered to feeds Mr. Bubbles. I wass a little worriid aboust how much he feed Mr. Bubbbles, but he tolds me taht a fishie can nevar have too much to eats. I think he's still worrieded about the whole him kissing me and then storming off thingy. :) Silly boy. Doesn't he knww thtat I've forgived him arleady? I just cant bez alround him becuz I tihnk I might like him.... I wants to kisssss him agani... :(
Mah juise tastes funnay thoguh...
awwwww! look! MRa. Bubbles ish sleeping upisde down!!!1 Hez so tatlented! just like his pappy..
...OH! this isnts mah juise .-. this ies mah sake! oopsies! :) Current Mood: drunk
|Tuesday, January 21st, 2003|
...Where to begin?...
How about: I am the biggest moronic idiot
on the face of the planet.
Sounds about right. ~_~ I knew that it was too good to be true... I knew it... ( ~_~Collapse ) Current Mood: gloomy
|Thursday, January 2nd, 2003|
.... *sigh* ....
oh. my. god. I can't believe what happened... o_o; I mean, one minute I'm just sitting there listening to the people cheering in the streets and then Ma-kun's next to me... and I tried not to think anything of it, cause well...after all the dreams I've been having (which thankfully he knows NOTHING about ~_~ I would die of embarrassment if he ever found out that I've been having dirty dreams about him) it's gotten a bit difficult to be in close proximity with him... But I thought, what the hell, its New Years...and we're bandmates! so I turned to tell him something (whatever it was, completely
slipped my mind) and he mumbled something...and all of a sudden, it was my dreams come true...
That is until Tachi started coughing (I still don't think he was choking on his cracker like he said he was) and Ma-kun jumped away... Making it all the more obvious that my dreams are nothing more than just that...dreams
though not that I wanted them to be... I still have feelings for Tachi... What I think of Ma-kun is just hormone-induced...... Right?
~_~ I think it goes without saying that I had another dream last night... and when I woke up this morning, I could swear I could still feel where his hands had been... Current Mood: confused
|Tuesday, December 24th, 2002|
Makun...I'm sorry...oh god... I never meant to... ~_~ Forgive me please?
|Sunday, December 8th, 2002|
*AHEM* I would like to make it clear to you, Ma-kun that I was NOT
, as you so delicately put it, pitching a tent while dreaming of Tachi. I was merely dreaming about us performing on stage, and I was saying it was his cue. THANKYOUVERYMUCH. >.<; ....
And honestly, does my apartment LOOK like the motel down the street (which I'm sure Ma-kun is very well acquainted with)?! Not that I mind Tachi
coming to visit... its just...x.x; Its small enough as it is... ~_~ and with Ma-kun's hormones taking a vacation from the non-horny side of his brain, I'm afraid to sleep with my door unlocked. I kinda wish I had a place for Tachi to sleep ... a LOCKED place....x.x but as is, he's going to be out there with Ma-kun... ~~; I can only hope that my esteemed bandmate can controll himself...
Ugh, what am I thinking? I can't just leave Tachi out there by himself! I'd feel so guilty if something happened... v.v; Someone tell me I'm not considering giving up my bedroom to Tachi...
... Guess I'd better grab my pillows. Current Mood: confused
|Saturday, November 30th, 2002|
Has anyone ever
seen a grown man waddle around imitating a penguin on crack, with women's undergarments on his head, all the while making lude gestures and mocking his best friends' names. No...I don't think you have.
|Saturday, November 23rd, 2002|
...Ma kun...gave me a backrub... and I fell asleep... ~_~ I feel so embarrassed.... v.v; sorry about that Ma-kun ...u.u; thank you for helping me into bed... It must have been revenge for that time I walked in on Ma-kun in the shower... he didn't see me but... ._.; its not my fault that I watched for one, maybe five minutes!! If he hadn't been putting on a show, everything would have been fine!! He has such a nice... hair! His hair is very pretty....
....I think I need a shower now...@_@ Current Mood: embarrassed
|Friday, November 15th, 2002|
Sorry I haven't been updating lately! ._. I've been so busy helping Ma-kun move in and everything, that I haven't had much time to do anything...x.x;
you didn't wake me up Ma-kun, last night... I was still awake...just barely... I haven't been sleeping that well lately... ^_^; And its a good thing that you didn't get drunk ^^;;; I think everyone is better off when they don't drink...no really, trust me on this one... @_@;;
*sigh* actually, I think I'm going to go make myself some tea and wait for Ma-kun to get back from the store... and Tachi if you're reading this, give me a call... I miss you... or rather, never mind the tea...I think I'm going to come over. Current Mood: lonely
|Saturday, November 9th, 2002|
Oi...so...I went over to Tachi's to help him clean up the mess in his kitchen because his hands were bothering him... that was slightly
awkward...*cough* I don't know... even though we seem to have gotten past the whole, me blubbing my heart out to him and him shooting me down in flames "incident"....I think. We never really talked about it... it was like, after the confrontation at the studio that involved me and a closet, it just seems like it's the forbidden subject @_@; ah well...
I still have feelings for him but they've ...changed since all that happened...I don't know what they are though...I don't know exactly how I feel... Ugh, I think I need some time alone to figure everything out...
...which I'm not going to get... *sigh* Ma-kun's getting sued for punching that one fellow who called him clumsy. Not that I'm saying that guy didn't deserve it, its just... you didn't have to hit him~!!!! v.v; so now Ma-kun's evicted out of his apartment and is coming to room with me for a while... a week or so... I HOPE.
@_@; I am going to go crazy... Current Mood: frustrated
|Friday, November 8th, 2002|
|Wednesday, November 6th, 2002|
Oh.my.god! Remind me to never drink again~! That was awful...x.x I thought I learned my lesson...but I still had some left and yesterday Ma-kun was being all...Ma-kun ish...x.x and well....v.v I have a weak will...*sigh*
I remember vaguely being on the computer and then throwing up....x.x But everything after that is a blur...@_@; I also thought I heard knocking, but that was right before everything went black... well....at least I think it went black...
Ugh...my head...@.@; someone shoot me. Please Current Mood: nauseated
|Monday, November 4th, 2002|
Ughhhh....my head hurts... Tachi...I would just like to apologize for the jacket. I promise I'll get that cleaned out as soon as I can. I didn't know the car ride would upset me like that...
...Remind me to never drink again. Dear lord. Don't ask me what I was thinking. I just saw that bottle of vodka. And it was right after Tachi called. And I was nervous...and... well, one glass led to another and ...well, lets say one bottle was plenty enough to get me drunk.
...and Ma kun. No I did not dress in drag. And NO I would not look pretty in it. And I would like you to know that I did NOT act like you.
......at least I don't think I did. Current Mood: HungOver
|Sunday, November 3rd, 2002|
OGM!!!111 Takchii cakl;ed me !!1 were goina go soee a msovie!!!111 He luvss em!
...durnk...? i amd not! Current Mood: drunk